April 17, 2009

Today I grew up a bit….

This is Carl. He was 11.
Carl hung himself on Monday, because he was no longer feelin gettin bullied and tortured at school.

Kids would routinely call him Faggot.

I have routinely used this word for the better part of my life on Earth.
Born In Omaha, and bein culturally seasoned to use the word ad naseum I had found myself for the better part of the last 20 some-odd years to not use it as derogatory mark about someone’s sexual orientation.

I have, however continued to use it, in an atmosphere when I was competing in sports. Usually to trash-talk while playing basketball.

I never looked at in that context as racist or bad, because I was using it as an adjective to emasculate someone in a setting purely based around sports or competing.

And after reading about the fact that Carl killed himself because he just didn’t wanna hear it, IN THE SAME CONTEXT, I will no longer be using it.

I always figured that it was ok, because I wasn’t racist against anyone’s sexual orientation. That it was just a word to diss someone.

Well, from now on, I will pick another word.

Thank you Carl.

And I wish you Godspeed.

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